A sad trip home!

The last Sunday of September I received a phone call from my aunt telling me to get my.....to Oregon, my grandpa had a 5% chance of living. With tears in my eyes I let the family know and Sheldon booked our tickets for that afternoon. Two hours before we got to Portland he passed away. I had so hoped he could have held on till we had arrived. The pictures below are many of the moments we spent time together with our family. I had called my sister Kali and she, her husband Cody and baby Alley drove from Utah, my brother Alex and I left at the same time Sunday morning and he flew his baby and girlfriend up from California. We stayed with my aunt Jackie and uncle Randy, my uncle Doug came up with my cousin Earl and his family from Portland, and then my aunt Megan and her family came from John Day, Oregon. Let me tell you, it was such a bitter sweet trip through those mountains, our family hasn't been there in three years and this not how we had envisioned going back. Something my nephew Gabe said keeps haunting me " Are we still sad", in response my aunt and uncle say " YES, we are still sad". October 1st was my sister birthday, so we had "D"(alex's girlfriend) make Kali a cake, it was one of our happier moments....
My many thank yous to my brother and sister for coming and giving my moral support, and thank yous to my aunt and uncle for a place to stay, food to eat, and moral support also. Many tears can't change what is now, but I know that eventually my heart will heal and one day I will see him again! For those of you not LDS, just know it's an LDS belief!

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My two boys!

Here are two pictures of my little boy and my very big boy, Spencer is already in bed so he couldn't be in this picture.

Thank you's!!!!

I just quickly want to thank family for the wonderful support and love you have all shown to Seth.
First I will thank my mom, for coming to the baby shower and giving Seth some cute outfits, I will take pictures when he wears them, that way you can see them even though you are far away....
A great big thank you to my sister Kali for the wonderful play mat she bought Seth, he loves to sit under it every morning and listen to the lion sing. I wish it played longer songs..HEHEHE
Thank you, thank you, to my brother Alex and his family for the monitors, and the special seat, sorry forgot it's name, it does have a name!
Another big thank you to my aunt Jackie (and Gabe), for the beautiful blanket that she made, you can see part of it in the last two pictures. I love the colors.
Also Thank you to my sister in law Linda and her family for the baby outfit, blanket and burp cloths, always handy..I will take a picture when he is in it for you...
Ahead of time, THANK YOU - Dot for making Seth his blessing outfit, I am way excited and I will put a picture up of Spencer and one of Seth so we can compare.....
Hugs and kisses all around. Seth is a loved little boy.....

This is What?

Here we have our family squeeky toy...or so that's what all our friends call him. This is a constant, it is especially fun during church. It makes Sheldon and I feel more comfortable with him doing this, then we know he is breathing.